Something ELSE that pisses me off about liberals.

Well, first, to recap, here's the first dose of it.

But, here's one that's been cropping up more lately, and it's always annoyed me, and it must annoy someone else, probably conservatives, but I hope it annoys liberals too, because it's just plain lame human behavior.

Well, here it is.

This condescending myth of the noble savage.
The left is obsessed with it.
Especially these guilty fucking celebrities.

And they hang on to it with an iron fucking grip.
In the face of horrifying consequences.
Oh, MAN am I sick of this shit.

The most benign form of it, and it's still pretty fucking revolting, is you'll see these fucking rich white assholes go to a country of brown people, where they live in shit, and eat shit, and they're like these disaffected fucking tourists y'know, and are all like "ohhh aren't they CUTE? Aren't they CUTE rolling in shit, and eating shit?".

And then they'll join in on eating the shit, and be like "oh, their way of life is so NOBLE and this rat shit stew is so NOBLE, it's NOBLE shit, um num num! What noble shit! If only we could all eat some shit, because it's so NOBLE! Not like the evil corporation-y food we have to eat".

And then they go home, and suck down lattes, and shovel caviar into their stupid over privileged hypocrite guts.

Oh, MAN, it's is such a fucking LOAD!!

I agree with everything that's awful about conservatism, but being a liberal has subjected me to a relentless Niagra Falls gushing of this fucking shiiiit!!!

Don't you goofy fucking people get why that's so condescending?
Don't you get that you're infantilizing a whole culture of grown-ass adults?
Don't you see that that is um...RACIST?
As goddamned racist as the benign twits watching the Sambo step-n-fetchit shows, and going "ohh, isn't that CUTE? Look at that nigger jitterbug".
Don't you see that?
That's just flying right past ya, huh?
Sailing right overhead.
Tch....

It's a heartbeat away from "can I put this saddle on you, and ride you, Toby?".
I really think it is.

And it's not just brown people in these impoverished resource sparse countries, it's right at home.

The whole "noble savage", load of horseshit is how the hippies embraced the fucking Hell's Angels.
Racist, radical right wing, violent, stupid, assholes geeked on crank, and the flower children were like "derp! They're like us!".
And then fucking Altamont happened.

Dilholes.
And they haven't learned a fucking thing.
It marches on.
It's a myth that creates dupes and hypocrites, and it's really past its sell by date by now.
It reeks.
Toss it.

I think the very worst of it, and I faintly touched on it in the last liberal rant, is how...the scientific and intellectual community decided in the 70's and 80's not to take the stand against religion they've suddenly taken starting with Dawkins, because...white liberal guilt.
The cultures with the nastiest, destructive, repressive forms of religion, were also these brown cultures in dirthole countries that were getting pushed around by corporate imperialist assholes, so, if white neo-con imperialists were on this side of the playing field, that meant the other side of the playing field MUST be noble savages.
So, it was hands off, and bow your head.
And now, no more world trade center.
As we knew it, anyway.
So, yeah.
The US is on it's what, 4th war?
How many plates are we spinning?

No, it's not so benign.
This shit carves history.
And what a bloody fucking mess it is.

I don't know what the answer, or the alternative is, but I do know this condescending, crypto-racist limousine liberal shit hasn't done much if any good.

And I get it, I know where it mutates from, liberalism has that whole "plight of the downtrodden", thing at its core, and your hearts were in the right place...but your BRAINS, could you please boot those up?

First program to run after the bootup, learn from history, wouldja?
Huh?
Couldja?

At the very least, could someone smack Anthony Bourdain in the chops?
Can we start there?


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69 duuuude!!

Last milestone of this type.

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Old people.

I see a lot of people being let off the hook, and patted on the head for being bigoted, superstitious, sexually uptight, technophobic, easy to offend, or just plain pig-ignorant on any number of subjects because they're old.

Ahhh, bullshit to that stupid noise.

Look, my grandfather on my mother's side keeps up on the latest gadgets, his late ex-wife, my grandmother, used CB radio to...well, pretty much be Joy Behar meets Howard Stern decades before either emerged on the scene, and my late Grandfather on my father's side liked every gory war, crime, or horror movie on premium cable he could get his eyeballs on.
He was a particular fan of "Aliens", had a crush on Sigourney Weaver I think.

And all of my family likes bawdy jokes, limericks, you name it.
We're not lame fuckin' twats, is what I'm sayin.

It's got nothing to do with AGE.
AGE doesn't turn you into a boring emotionally constipated load.

No, people like this are just grey, wrinkly, frail versions of the same bland, joyless, dumb, uninteresting, second-rate people they always were.

Next time one of you poor unfortunates who didn't hit the biological lottery have to suffer some political talk radio regurgitation from one of your old folks, say "shaddap!! You're a fuggin' idiot, Granpa!!".

Shit, you'd say it to your goofy brother in law, wouldn't ya?
All right then.


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What I don't do- The Collection.

Didn't plan on that one being a SERIES, but, they often do creep up on me...

So...let's make this one a Shriek From The Wall Of Meat, and the companion to "there's nothing know".

Can't think of an over-arcing reason why I took this particular journey, except to note that...

I know what I know what I know what's in my heeeeaaaad!!!
And I didn't know what I haaaad, but I haaaad what I waaanteeedd!!!


1. It's what you DON'T do!
2. Things I don't do...
3. More things I don't do.
4. Even more things I don't do.
5. Things I don't do- remaining thoughts.
6. I've cracked the code!


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SOWTHIFL #38

So, let's have something light and happy after all that ranting, eh?


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Things I don't do- remaining thoughts.

In the last one, I had a good head of steam going, and a sub-topic came up I feel like digging into a bit.

I threw out this observation...


Too much dumb goofy shit in this culture you're supposed to FEEEEEL.
Dumb and goofy if you're LUCKY, usually it's fucking revolting and horrifying.

Well, as I'm cursed with remembering everything in my whole entire life, as I typed that, an example sprung immediately to mind.
In exactly the same way that "it's what you DON'T do", popped into my head, and became such an earworm that I had to finally publicly strangle it to death over the course of 4 posts.

I didn't crowbar it into the post I was typing, because it would've fucked up the flow, so now, here it is split off.

Okay, so it starts like this...

One time, I sat down, and watched an episode of "my so-called life".

Now, if you don't remember "my so-called life", you're fucking lucky, and you might even want to abandon this post right now to spare your sanity.

Okay, of those of you who stayed, I continue...

Now, "my so-called life", was this horrible TV show in the 1990's about whiny, unpleasant teenagers created by the same people who did "Thirtysomething", which was about whiny, unpleasant Baby-boomers.

Okay, here's the breakdown.

Claire Danes plays the main character, a whiny dumb girl, and despite her playing an awful, whiny, dumb twit of a character, I wouldn't have minded very much fucking her in the mouth.

Jared Leto played the male bimbo the Dumb Girl was in love with.

Brian Krakow played the twerpy nerd who REALLY wanted to fuck Dumb Girl in the mouth.

Then, there was Dumb Girl's dumb awful mother, and Dumb Girl's dumb awful friends.

There was no quest for treasure or nothin' these people just sort of existed, and mindlessly bumped into each other like wind up toys.

No one was sympathetic, they all needed some severe killing, which makes me flash back again to "Freddy's Nightmares".

The critics raved about this piece of shit, but to me, based on just the commercials, it always looked like a piece of shit.
But, I guess I just hadn't learned to 100% trust in my own critical faculties yet, so I caved into pressure from dumbass critics, and watched this fucking thing.

So, in this particular episode, Dumb Girl is all dumb and bubbly about something dumb (probably prancing off to fuck Male Bimbo), and then Twerpy Nerd makes some snarky cutting remark about what she's being all bubbly and dumb about being dumb, to which Dumb Girl retorts "you dissect everything until it doesn't EXIST!", and storms off.
Twerpy Nerd then recoils, as if stricken, as if to say "wow, she sure told ME off!".

And I could tell that the audience was meant to react like "YEAH! You sure told him! You tell him girlfriend! Uh huh!".

Then I knew once and for all who the ideal audience for this shit was, and I knew for damned sure what worthless shitty hacks most critics were.

Y'know how a couple episodes of South Park ago, Stan started to see everything as shit?
Yeah, happened for me right about there.
Shit pretty much started spraying right out of the screen.

Anyway, that one line of awful dialogue encapsulates for me everything that's wrong and dumb in our culture, and indeed the other human beings I typically get inflicted with.
Or used to, before I bailed out on the whole wretched disgusting mess.

I'll start by simply responding to that crap with "bitch, if it doesn't exist after dissection, it NEVER fucking existed, you vapid little hobgoblin from the fevered mind of a horrible hack".

I guess "it's what you DON'T do", was my real life moment like that.
That's how it ties in.

And that's this culture.
Wave after wave of shit that never fucking existed, and you're either supposed to mindlessly join in on the play-pretend, or babysit those that do.

I could almost buy into it, if it were FUN play-pretend.
That would make sense.
People avoiding reality, if they're gonna live in a fucking dream world, go the whole nine yards, spaceships, lasers, wizards, the whole deal.
But no, that's not what countries typically do.
Their play-pretend is ugly shit.
Ugly dumb boring shit.
Like, religion, like patriotism, like, consumerism.
It's all a smokescreen of lies, the world it makes is a snowjob that brainwashes and enslaves you, and to top it off, you're supposed to think it's all fucking great.

Well...if you want ME to think it's great, where's my fucking robot butler, and redhead hooker painting chocolate on her tits?

What, you could bend the fabric of reality and sanity to such an absurd degree that you could make Claire Danes the de-facto star of Terminator 3, but no hooker/robot for me?

It just just doesn't make any sense...
Eh, it isn't meant to.

So, yeah, back to the topic, right, so the Wikipedia page says about Twerpy Nerd...

Despite his high IQ and demonstrated perceptions/insights into other characters, he lacks emotional intelligence and is often socially awkward and self-righteous.

I'd read about that whole "emotional intelligence", shit somewhere once before, and often worried that I lacked in it.
Probably why that line stuck in my head.
Took it to heart maybe.
Shouldn't have.
I've now concluded I know pretty damned well how people tick, and in the case of dumb people, I don't really fucking care.
It's not that I don't know, I just don't care anymore.

That's what the last post was about.

"Socially awkard", as a teen?
Um, yes, and no.
Sure, it's awkward to be put into a setting you're out of place in.
Like, being a Jew at a Klan rally would probably be fucking awkward.
Guess what, they don't go to Klan rallies, neither do I.
I was never like "oh, I wish I could go to a stupid party, but I'm just so awkward".
No, they were like Klan rallies to me, I just didn't go.
Didn't even occur.

Was it awkward trying to associate with the dumb boring shit dumb people were talking about?

If I ever forced it, but I just realized it was dumb, and didn't force it.

For the longest time though, I thought there might be something wrong with me, and tried to find ways to "fix", myself, and that only served to make me sick.

That's what it does, that's all it does, and I think that's why so many people are on anti-depressant meds.

This culture wants you sick.

And that's what that shitty show was shoveling.
"If you think Claire Danes is dumb, you're bad, fit in!".

This is why I wrote "there's nothing to know", if you see it my way, you're not wrong, you're not broken.
You're not lacking in "emotional intelligence".
Someone with full blown aspergers, maybe, but I'm doubting even that shit.

I've got plenty of damned emotions, I can read other people's emotions fairly well, if you're reacting to my emotions in these posts, so can you.
Who are we fucking kidding?

All that's left is the babysitter shit.
I consciously decide I'm not doing it.
I could, but it makes me want to vomit and then die.
So, I'm not doing it.
I'm not "crippled", because I won't do these things.
And I'm willing to bear the consequences.
Always have been.

How nasty the consequences have been proves my point about people.
All the shit I've gotten, and these people think they're good.
To this day.
So, who's got "emotional intelligence", again?
Hmm?
Yeah.
Okay.

Y'know, I think it really comes down to, I think it would just simply comfort people, if people like me were a disease.
Doesn't matter the hell we go through, as long as THEY feel good.
As I've said before, fuck your comfort.
Fuck it.


Oh, and on that score, I remember one of the critical blurbs in one of the ads that made me gag.


"If you don't like this show, you were never a teenager".
Oh, gosh, I guess not...
*Eye roll*
Like I said....

So, that's that little side road.
And, I'm done.



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Even more things I don't do.

I remembered after hitting send yesterday, there was a little more to the "it's what you DON'T do", incident.

Okay, so he says "it's what you DON'T do", he turns, and walks away, I shrug, turn and walk away, and he turns back around, and faintly mumbles "you don't...help...people".

You don't help people.

Bullshit.

I helped him stock his aisle any number of times.

I dunno what his fuckin' problem was.

If he didn't mean physical help, then we're back to the stuff in the last 2 entries (1, 2) to possibly break it down.

Was he having trouble with the redneck douchebags who ended up breaking out my window?
Were they bullying him?
Well, fuck, SAY so!
Fucking COMMUNICATE!
I'll say it again, I'm, not a fucking mind reader.

And...fuck, why would it be my job to save his ass from bullies, because I'm tall?
What, I'm a fucking karate man with super hearing & vision, and telepathy, that's supposed to just KNOW all this shit, and swoop in from on high?
I gave off that energy?
Really?
Tell the fucking managers!
Call a fucking cop!
Fuck!

I mean, I probably could have banged up the fat one pretty good, and he always seemed like the instigator of shit, so I would've enjoyed that beatdown, but if his three buddies joined into the fray, yeah, a bit hairy.

If that's what I wasn't doing...fucking-a.

Hey, you want me beat up a whole crew of guys?
Join in and help.
Back me up.
You're the one whining about "help".
Better yet, bring a fucking gun.
That'd be really fucking helpful.

Ugh...fuckin' people.

So...if it wasn't that...all that remains...is politics.
Drama.
Like, somehow, me not "going along to get along", or "suffering fools gladly", or whatever fucking secret vibe game I was supposed to be playing, was blowing back, and making things hard for him, and that was me "not helping people".

Fucking SAY so!!!!!

FUCK!!!

What the fuck is it with people not being able to encapsulate an issue, and spit it the fuck out?
You don't have to be a fucking English major.
Plug your mouth into your brain, and make the thoughts come out.
Cavemen fucking did it.

So, anyway, if it was either of those..oh well..*shrug*

Or...it could be, the bully thing, the vibe game thing, AND me not doing the whole vibe game thing made it seem I was unapproachable to help resolve the bullying/vibe game/drama thing.

Not a fucking mind reader, wasn't my job.

Oh well.

So, that beats that to death....
But, on to more stuff I don't do to be really sure.

Go the extra mile.

Ehh, that depends.

Did you spend 6 months shitting on my head?
Yeah, I'm not gonna break my back for people who shit on me.
I'm funny like that.

Are the pickup stops on that "extra mile", some of the bullshit described above?
A bunch of inscrutable soap opera shit?
If so, fuck your extra mile.

Stepping up to the plate

See "going the extra mile", and it depends.

I'll help your ass when my main duties are done.

If you think I'm slacking off, have the stones to say so to my face, or fuck off.
Whatever private little melodramatic stewing is going on in your little head can go eat a dick.

Especially if it involves the big inscrutable soap opera.


Sugar coat it

Babysitting, fuck off.


There, those are all the little items...

Now,  if all of what I've posted thus far was/is trapped on the tip of your tongue as some vague, murky, grey, melty FEELING, fuck your feelings.
Learn to fucking communicate.
Dipshit.

And if your FEELINGS carried that "go along to get along", game-playing shit in their little septic wake, fuck 'em harder.

This'll blow your tiny little mind, but your dumb little feelings aren't special, and they certainly aren't ineffable, or transcendent, and they sure as fuck don't carry "special wisdom".
Being incommunicative and inscrutible is wisdom?
Fuck off.

Too much dumb goofy shit in this culture you're supposed to FEEEEEL.
Dumb and goofy if you're LUCKY, usually it's fucking revolting and horrifying.

(Yeah, I'm talking to the guy as if he's reading this, but I'm talking to YOU the reader too, if these are your attitudes against me, or to society and life in general)

There, I think I've really beat the shit out of this now.


So that's "what you DON'T do".

And it wasn't just that moment, I've put up with this insufferable stupidity all my fucking life.

Here's a couple variations.

"You don't...you don't...nevermind".

Yeah, I got that one at the GOOD stint at Toys R Us.

That shit'll drive you up a fucking wall.

Or, there's this one.

"You don't....you just don't".

Both suck.

The first is mere drivel, the latter is trying to be clever, and isn't.
Neither are "deep".

Yeah, I actually heard this shit from people.
Can you believe this shit?
I can't, and it fucking happened.

And variations happened all while I came up through school.
These are just the ones I can most clearly remember.
The good bulk of it was vibe shit.
People just acting funny, or being a little off, treating me different, and being all secretive and mysterious about it, like "oh..we can't TELL him, not HIM, we have to HANDLE him..".

That fucking "handle", shit.
Did you ever get that?
Did you ever get handled?
Doesn't it just piss you right the fuck off?

Yeah, don't fucking TALK to me, play fucking games.
Play stupid schoolyard teenage girl games as adult so-called professionals.
Assholes.
STUPID assholes!
No wonder I'm like this.


Fuck your vibes, fuck your signals, fuck your games, fuck your teenage girl drama, I know what I "don't", and you can cram it all.
I come right out and confess it.
And I'm not sorry.
I lack nothing, there's nothing "wrong", with me.


It's funny, how I've managed to actually accumulate friends, with my "bad social skills".
It's funny, how I have people who respect me, who get me, who *gasp* LIKE me with all these things that are supposed to be WRONG with me.

That I got sent to "special schools", that were glorified booby-hatches for.

I was treated like a sub-human animal by these horrible stupid fucking people, and they were just plain dumb, and just plain wrong, it's really that simple, and this has been a dissection of their shitty "values", such as they are.

I don't want it to be vague, I openly reject them.

I defy them.
With every spark of life in my carcass.

I didn't clumsily stumble-bum through the flower patch like some dope, I made these decisions in my fucking head.

I want this to be clear.

If asshole scumbag dipshits, and crybabies are going to hate me in the future, I want it to be for the right fucking reasons.

I want you to really hate ME and not what the distorted IMPRESSION is.

I went through a lot of annoying SHIT because of fucking impressions.

I'm sure to get more shit, I've decades to go in this life, but let's at least get this shit right.

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